just waiting.

i got up and i called fredrick because i was wondering if he could help me check on my citizenship, since i need confirmation of my citizenship in order to get my driver's license again. he told me that i should call the ics and check with them, since they're in charge of assisting me with that. so i ate breakfast and did my exercises that i was given the last time i had surgery. then i called ics and zen told me someone would help me with it later. if, for some reason, i get deported- i did everything in my ability to try to confirm my citizenship. THE NORMAL PERSON would just turn to their family for assistance with this but oh! I GOT THIS! right amanda?! in the back of my mind, i do HOPE that i get deported because it's not like my fucking family cared about me enough to check on this. no.. they'd rather be NOSEY and watch me struggle- RIGHT AMANDA? I GOT THIS! right.. i got this.. all the way to a venezuelan prison camp. AMANDA AND THE REST OF MY FAMILY DON'T CARE ENOUGH TO MAKE SURE THEIR OWN DISABLED RELATIVE ACTUALLY HAS THEIR CITIZENSHIP CONFIRMED. it's way too much responsibility for my mom to worry about.. she'd rather cry and get attention for me getting deported! i guess i wouldn't mind if i got hauled back to mexico.. would do half my work of getting back to mexico but i don't personally know anyone in mexico.. so i'm not sure where i'd stay seeing as the last time i was there was when i was an infant being born outta my mom. the president of mexico is a hell of a lot more intelligent than the "president" of the united states now though. he can't even pay for a brain- so he's fucked and just resorts to punishing people different and more intelligent than he could ever wish to be. i DO have my birth certificate- which kinda confirms my citizenship but my naturalization papers were thrown at my grandma's sister during a bitch fit that my uncle had. no one retrieved them- so i'm trying to get a copy of them now and i HAVE paid for the papers.. however, i still am waiting for uscis to confirm my citizenship. it's kinda a coincidence that it's taking so fucking long for them to identify my damn citizenship- i paid for and got my naturalization papers probably close to a year ago.. maybe 6 months or a little more ago- i figured uscis would recognize my citizenship sooner than this since they CLAIM to be "assisting" immigrants. no wonder why i hear about people getting deported because uscis aren't doing their jobs.